Books and Dreams

Another chapter in D0wneast Living. Quiet week so far. Getting ready for my wood delivery, all 4 cords of it which will need to be stacked . Cleaned the garage to make room for it all. Took me a couple of days,but finished pushing, lugging, and throwing "stuff" yesterday. and now there is room for the new wood and my Jeep. As a result of my physical work, I collapsed late in the afternoon and slept like an infant. Got up, fixed a wonderful oven roasted mushroom soup, spoke with my daughter, then off to bed at 9.

Finished reading the "KITE RUNNER" prior to going to sleep. I understand now why people wept, and were unable to turn pages to continue on with the book. As for me it conjured up vivid dreams that left me breathless, uneasy, and sad. My grandmother, who passed away nearly 23 years ago was very previlant in the dream, and after all this time I am missing her in a way I don't quite understand. Childbirth, a cousin, massage therapy for the masseuse, and unfamiliar territory that seemed familiar all blended together leaving me distanced from myself as I rose to consciousness.

Thinking that doing my normal morning routine( letting the animals out to relieve themselves, having my morning coffee, and reading the newspaper) would ground me ,only drove me further
into despair,turmoil and rage. Every article my eyes fell upon seemed only to reflect the book I finished last evening. Three young teenagers killing a beloved 15 year old cat belonging to neighbors, multiple articles on sexual abuse by men in their fifties to young teenage girls one of which was under the age of 12 when the abuse occured. Grown men sexually abusing young boys. What in hell is wrong with their psyches. What is wrong with this world.

I don't understand this predatory behavior, and the devestation it causes the young victims,who have to live with this throughout their lives. I imagine their lives are totally altered due to the sick, selfish behavior of one person. Interestingly enough it appears that males are the rule and not the exception, and ,I ask, what should the punishment be?

Preying on innocent young girls or young women, killing or maiming trusting, loving family pets
seems to be happening more and more, leaving me distressed and saddened by the callousness of the human species.

Isabella